Still waiting

Still waiting to hear the result of my WCA. Depressed and despondent. Suicidal thoughts.

So now we know...

What we've suspected all along is that ATOS employ artificial targets aimed at shifting people of benefits into the workforce, and this at a time of high unemployment (though the most recently figures showed a decline in the jobless, the figure is still higher than when the ConDem goct came to power).

The Guardian have reported on a secret film made of ATOS training:

Atos assessors told to keep disability benefit approvals low, film suggests

GP applied for job with Atos assessing whether benefit applicants were fit for work, and secretly filmed his training.

"Undercover filming shows Bick being told by his trainer that he will be watched carefully over the number of applicants he found eligible for the highest rate of disability payments."

The article also says:

"Large numbers of people found ineligible for the benefit are appealing against the decision to find them fit for work; about 41% of those refused support go to tribunal and 30% are subsequently granted the benefit. There have been more than 600,000 appeals since the WCA started, costing about £60m a year."       

Of course ATOS continue to deny that they set targets.

The film was shown on Channel 4 8pm Monday 30th July. It can be seen on Channel 4OD online.

Coming Out

The politics of mental healthLast month, four MPs bravely told the world about their own mental health issues in an effort to reduce the stigma. They talk about what happened next - Guardian.

The article mentions this website:  Time to Change. Thousands of people talking about their mental health problems.

Meanwhile 

Million jobless may face six months' unpaid work or have benefits stopped.
Community action programme to tackle long-term unemployment could prove expensive failure, says thinktank - Guardian.

WCA

I had my Work Capacity Assessment yesterday.

I was interviewed by a nurse rather than a doctor. The nurse did not perform any of the standard tests I have come to associate with my conditions -- fibromyalgia or anxiety/depression. He seemed to take my diagnosis as read, but was solely concerned with my ability to work despite the diagnosis.

But then as a nurse he could not really make that assessment and his job was simply to run me through a questionnaire so that other faceless bureaucrats could make a decision well removed from me. I have no right to face my accuser or to have a day in court over this. To the people making the decision I'm not even a person, just a file. And they have no idea of the consequences of their actions.

He was all business, appeared quite friendly, but not particularly sympathetic. At one point I burst into tears and it took me a while to get myself back under control. He pushed a box of tissues across to me. I tried to convey what my life is like when things are bad. He seemed to take me at my word on this which was one thing. But then I did not see what he was typing on his computer.

It was a grueling experience that I have no wish to repeat.

The one thing that has become all too clear is that being at the mercy of these cunts is not something I think I can tolerate long term. I'm going to have to find a way out of the health trap. I'm wondering about going back to school, but I'm not interested in practical subjects. If I could I'd like to study economics and public policy for instance. I've become quite concerned about how the government is trashing things. But where's that going in employment terms?

In any case I have to wait a few weeks now. I'm dreading being forced into job seeking. I wish I could have found a way out for myself before now. Losing the Income Support I've been getting and dropping down to the level of basic ESA is not going to be easy. It's about £25 a week less. At present I have about £50 of disposable income -- from which comes clothes, shoes, and any extras. I confess to spending most of it on trivial stuff, but it includes books.

At 47 and not having worked for five years now, who is going to offer me employment? Or will I be forced into one of these workfare benefit slavery deals? The chances are I'm going to fall apart under pressure and that's all going to be distressing for me, any employer and the people I work for.

Sensible Economist

Steve Keen, Autralian economist talking about the world financial crisis (which he predicted in 2005). He identifies the amount of private debt as the big problem. In the US it reached 300% of GDP. It will take decades to get back to manageable levels by paying off and bankruptcy. 

The solution is to abolish debt. Have a debt jubilee (by giving money to the debtors, but requiring people to pay off debts if they have them). Allow the banks to go bankrupt. Restructure them. Never again allow banks to lone money to people so they can speculate on the price of assets. If we don't the right-wing will probably rise up (as it did in the 1930's), and there will be widespread social unrest.

Reform economics so that it reflects reality (which is doesn't now). Don't over-rate sincerity, the most sincere person you'll ever meet is the maniac with an axe trying to chop your head off. Or indeed the Secretary of State for Work and Pensions...

Physical Functions

Can you walk at least 200 metres before you need to stop? [this unaided by another person, but including
walking stick, wheel chair, crutches]
Can you walk up and down 2 steps without help from another person?
Can you sit for an hour without help from another person.

And the answer is every case is HOW OFTEN? How often am I required to do this? Once a week? Once a day? 10 times a day? 100?

ESA50

Filling in the ESA50 form which has replaced the IB50. The last time I filled one of these in, the emphasis was 'what is wrong with you?'. Now it's 'why aren't you out working?'.

The questions are terrifying in a peculiar way. They want to know shit like

can you get out  of bed and wash your self?
do you eat?
can you stand up or sit in a chair?
can you walk at all?
can you leave the house?
have you got minimal use of hands and arms?
can you socialise at all?
what do you do that might upset workmates?

The lists is so minimal. Like a basic list of human functions. And you just know that behind each one is the implied question, 'if  you answered yes to this question, then why aren't you working?' Can you fill in this form? Yes? Well you, my friend, just qualified for the workforce. Are you alive? Well get a fucking job.

This is much worse that IB50. I don't think I'm going to make it, but then that means that I'm supposed to go back into the workforce. I'm panicking just thinking about it. What it will mean is that welfare is cut by £25 a week, and I'm forced to apply for jobs that no one in their right mind would give me.

Some of the things I can do once or twice, but not continuously or repetitively. Certainly not two days in a row, and not without the help of a hefty dose of codeine. But they do not test for this, and they never have. How do I make them test me for the problem I have?